2 Years later and this is where I'm at

So its been two years since I've written on this. I should just start a brand new one, but I'm not sure how to even work this one. To start off, I am now married to an amazing guy. We met August 15th 2010. Keep in mind this is when I was still at a pretty hard point with the depression, I had just gotten off some meds and the with drawls were having a terrible effect on me. Anyway, that night I went with some friends to a Samoan Club Gospel Forum, there, a friend introduced me to David. Later on I had a break down and couldn't stop crying, I still remember him walking up and saying "Are you ok?" We went and played games and afterward I offered to take him home. While on the way, he asked me what was wrong, not sure why I opened up so easily to him, but I told him of my battle with depression. We sat in the car and talked until 6 in the morning. On August 17th while sitting outside the Temple he asked me to be his girlfriend. The 19th he said he loved me, having never told a guy that I didn't say it in return until a few days later. I had always heard of couples that got engaged with in the first week of knowing each other and wondered if it were possible, but guess what, it is. I had finally found someone that accepted me for me, someone that wasn't to shame to be with me out in public, and someone that I didn't have to chase. We were married April 15th in the Laie Hawaii Temple. That was one of the best days. We just celebrated our one year anniversary, I can not beleive how fast this last year has come and gone. David is from the island of Samoa, I have not been there yet, but I can not wait to go visit. I love the Samoan people and culture. My husband is one of the most selfless people that I know, that is how their culture is, they are all about giving. I'm not there yet, but I do hope oneday to be as selfless as David is. I still have my good days and bad days with the depression. I am still trying to be completely of my meds so am trying different things. I still would like to get better and then speak out of the seriousness of depression. It takes over so many peoples lives and yet they don't speak out about it. By speaking out about it, I think it gives other people hope to know that there are other people out there struggling with the same thing. Or has struggled with it and overcame it. To many people are taking there own lives because of this. If you know someone that battles depression, let them speak to you about it, it can be uncomfortable for both of you, but if they feel comfortable talking about it with you, they may just feel comfortable talking to you about it when they are feeling suicidal. Also, be patient with them, we hate that it consumes so much of our lives and wish it didnt, but trust me, we already feel like a burden most of the time not being able to control our moods the way we wish we could. Lately, I have been to the point of wanting to quit my job because my moods are so hard to handle sometimes. If something bothers me at work, I don't know if its something legit to be upset about or if its my mood swings being to irrational. I feel blessed beyond words to have a husband that has stuck with me thus far. I know its hard on him, but he is so patient, gentle and loving, it really does help me help me. He gave me a reason to want to live and helps me strive to be happy.